IN THE HEART OF OCEAN....
(with it self for long)


All I could see was the drowning SUN at the end of the deep ocean as if saying "touch me ..see me I'll never come back".
Fighting with the darkness inside, forgetting the one coming outside which was about to touch me with it's virile hand.With almost no thoughts about anything on earth, my eyes were in endless search of something as far as they possibly could see.. Walking on sand drenched with sea and almost whole of feet inside the sand , suddenly something struck in my feet and unwillingly had to stop.After pulling it out all I could feel was freezing blood in every single vein wanted to relies the soul just then.....and tears rolled down soon as the time machine geared up to go into the past..
Eight months back ,, carrying a tender, naive, eights years old feeling in heart which was clutched tightly inside deepest of heart..never expressed though ,I was standing at the same shore. With overflowing glee and charm was promising my self to finally surrender and express ,was wishing Narayana good luck for his 10 fishing trip to middle of the sea which was indeed his everything except for one more thing.
Narayana.....I man who was made on his own, who was strong, naive and surely my pearl who was just a 21 year old, son of a just another fisherman in the group of those who resided on the shore of Sri lanka.
That Day when his ship was about to sail ..I ran to reach him and with no words gave a necklace which I made in past two years just for the day when I'll express everything with the best collection of stones and a pearl which once I found years back while playing in the sand..
Thinking from were to start was looking into his eyes who were asking reasons for everything..
Gathered all courage and uttered " Narayana I always....." when at the same time another screaming voice interrupted "Narayan come back ..ship is about to sail..HURRRRRY UPPP kid".
and all he could say"I have to go..thanks anyways I know what u have to say..I'll come back ..wait for me" he climbed over the ship and his eyes were fixed on me trying to say ..what I waited years to listen...and slowly and silently those eyes disappeared ....as the sun and as the ship too.
Never knew it would be the day for the death of my soul............
Since then coming back to the shore in hope that the ship will whistle again , will touch the land and he will jump out once more....few says the ship drowned in a storm, some says The devil in the ocean engulfed them .My heart could never believed it until this moment ..........................
when I saw the object objecting my further movement in that witty drenched sand...
It was that necklace which I gave to him............


revealing everything and taking away every thing from me.......................................................................................................